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About five years ago, I wouldn't have delved into drawing if I haven't bought a drawing tablet. I bought the best one I could buy, namely Intuos5 Touch and I felt capable and excited knowing this would be a part of my life. For many years I've been drawing on paper or retouching them on Photoshop that eventually evolved to me enjoying myself working on something different every now and again. But that tells half the story, because to be fair there's a looming loneliness whenever I try to type out my experience. A kind of disconnect, I think. Between what would people think of what is real and what isn't. I hate telling untruth and not knowing it. But to a realistic extent we all do. We have to, our brains doesn't function like earth or anything solid. We all have malleable feelings, emotions and passions. They change constantly and I guess that's why we cannot fully do that. What I'm getting at is that I try to be as truthful as many false starts of this journal thing have.
The thing i
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Landing - anim practice :iconpaintingjo:PaintingJo 13 3 As Easy As 3.142 :iconpoecillia-gracilis19:poecillia-gracilis19 97 28 Favorite place (Color Sketch) :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 2,056 151 Celestia hates Swans (Color sketch) :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 2,081 163 Best Princess =3 :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 1,208 84 Color Sketch (Patreon reward) :iconyakovlev-vad:Yakovlev-vad 630 54 What Music Can Do :iconlupiarts:LupiArts 103 28 Balancing Act :iconravensunart:RavenSunArt 219 22 Fooooolish Samurai :iconncmares:NCMares 1,519 137 Luminsityoverload :iconmadacon:Madacon 868 41 Mandelcoding V2 :iconpaintingjo:PaintingJo 9 4 MLP RedAlert Propoganda Wallpaper 1 :iconcyrilunicorn:CyrilUnicorn 168 33 Cuddles :iconmagnaluna:MagnaLuna 554 27 nom :iconmagnaluna:MagnaLuna 921 33 Like a Queen :iconmagnaluna:MagnaLuna 722 30


I am alive.

Procrastinating and generally inefficient with my own free time, anxious, frustrated with all my hobbies, but fine. Anyway, let me address few possible questions:

There are two reasons behind it. The first reason is school and the other one is dissatisfaction with my own work. Having high goals and standards for your own work isn't bad, if they are reasonable, however mine seem to be hundreds of steps ahead relative from my own skill.

My own belief is that you can do (almost) anything you want, if you invest enough effort into it. It took me hundreds of attempts to be finally able to draw a pony that looks reasonably well. But now, I don't see any improvement anymore. Now what? Try harder? Or maybe try some different approach?

But first, let me ask myself a question: why do I have such high unreasonable expectations?

The reasons are: quality over quantity, fear of failure, jealousy.

Quality over quantity: I really don't mind if someone posts barely once a month or year if his/her work is good. If I were to compile a list of my favorite Youtube channels, there would a lot of channels that upload roughly once a month or less. Same would probably apply here on deviantArt.

Fear of failure: in most cases, an unreasonable fear. What could possibly happen if I were to post my attempts at human faces regardless of how terrible it goes? Nothing, aside from popping up as relevant searches and found uninteresting by other people, which means less views and favs which translates back to lack of motivation. I have the feeling that an ideal artist should follow his creativity/heart without having sole focus on how much everybody reacts back, but just like every person, we enjoy being accepted and praised.
(Disclaimer: there surely are people that don't care about praises and acceptance...)

Jealousy: Nothing too deep about this. "Why can't I draw/paint/write as good as this?"

That's enough venting for this part.

I'll try to do them once I get over the 'I hate my own art' problem (see above) and school.

It's difficult... very difficult. I have nothing more to say about it that wasn't horribly butchered in the previous journal. Except maybe for complains about how difficult it is.

And that's about it.

Hopefully, this journal entry is written better than the previous ones. Maybe it's slightly longer. I tried to avoid excessive amount of 'I's, which should make it seem less awkward. Oh yeah, no emoji! Feels so weird when I don't use them.

Thanks for reading and have a great day! :dummy:


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sammy-the-sam Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2016
Happy birthday, I hope you have a good one!
RaveYard Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2016
Thank you! :)
Blumydia Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! :party: 
Here is a small gift for you! ^-^…
kTd1993 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2016
are requests still open?
RaveYard Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2016
Not at the moment.

See my previous journal entry for more information.
Blumydia Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! :Angel: 
Nightlovesbirds Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks so much for the watch! XD I really appreciate it. :3
WaterFerret Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the watch and all the faves! :D
RaveYard Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2016
No need to thank me for that :)
I am actually surprised that you have less than a hundred of watchers. I think you deserve more :D
WaterFerret Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
That's very nice of you to say! :)
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